First and foremost, Happy New Year! As we close out 2008 and approach 2009, I hope you can find a little bit of time to do some reflection. I hope you get a chance to examine who you are, or at least THINK you are.
I have. Let me share with you an event happened to me several weeks ago that forced me to re-examine myself.
And I don’t mean in a, “duh, I am Raymond Fong of course” type of way. I am talking about the sort of examination that forces you to confront your nastiest inner demons, your most paralyzing fears, your most disgusting alter ego, your most embarrassing weakness, and say to yourself…
“Yes, that is who I am.“
You see, what I was doing (and odds are, you may be doing too) is living my life thinking I was someone that frankly, I wasn’t. Deep inside, if I were to cut through all the lies and bullsh*t that I’ve weaved to help me feel better about myself, I would find out that how I’ve presented myself to the world was just a facade.
Now don’t get me wrong, that’s not to say that I’ve been living a lie – I haven’t been. But I have held beliefs that just weren’t true, beliefs that my ego forced on myself.
It was undoubtedly a very scary and frustrating moment – to realize that perhaps who I thought I was and what I thought I was capable of… wasn’t true. That maybe, just maybe, I really wasn’t as good as I thought. And that maybe, just maybe, the next person may in reality be better than me.
Every one of us has strengths, and everyone of us has weaknesses. Realizing your strength will help you conquer the world but before you can do so, you must first realize your weakness and conquer thyself.
Denial & Ego – Your Greatest Enemies
It’s in moments when you are in denial of your weakness (and you are so entrenched in your denial that you don’t even realize that you are in denial) that you find yourself having to prove to the world that you are something you are not. It’s in those moments that you may not do as well as you’d like and yet… can’t understand why.
And there exists a disconnect.
You focus on the failure, on the CAUSE for that failure, and you lose sight of the greater things – such as the lesson to be learned from that failure and how you can grow stronger as a result of those lessons.
You refuse to accept that failure was a result of your own weakness.
And you start looking for excuses… you start looking for scapegoats, for something/someone to blame but yourself. And you further weave that lie in your core and that weakness continues to prevail. You let your ego take over your being.
And now, you have something to prove to the world – in your silly reality weaved of lies and ego – you MUST show the world you HAVE no weakness. That the failure was just a fluke.
An attitude like that presents the biggest obstacle to ever eliminating that weakness – how can you correct something that you deny as to existing? It’s like an alcoholic trying to “fix” his alcoholism when he doesn’t even recognize it as a problem!
And the vicious downward cycles continues.
Channel Your Napoleon Complex

If you are finding yourself in this mindset, I am here to tell you that until you humble thyself and admit to having weaknesses, you will NEVER be happy with yourself. You will ALWAYS have something to prove to the world.
Now, don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with ambition, drive, and motivation. Napoleon Complex does serve its purpose, but in the right place, time, and in the right quantity. You have to learn to channel this energy, this ambition. You have to learn to control this drive to become the better version of yourself.
Lest… it controls you and cause your own self-destruction.
I finally learned to distinguish reality from what I’d “like to be (but am not there yet)“; to distinguish my true self from that of my ego’s.
With this new year, take the time to look within yourself, humbly. Do away with any ego and any pretenses. Tear away any predisposition and self-defense mechanisms pretending to protect you from yourself. Be honest with yourself about your strengths and weakness.
Find out who you REALLY are, and be okay with that! Then set forth to becoming the better version of yourself for the new year, and every year after
Happy New Year!
Raymond Fong

P.S. Special thanks to my mentor for life – Chief Master Taejoon Lee of the West Coast Hwa Rang Do Academy and my good friend and business partner, Fernando Ceballos.
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What an interesting night.
It started with me heading over to Ferny’s early so I can miss the rush hour traffic. Together we did some work and sipped some fine Belgium beers while waiting for David Schwind to show up. Turns out, David thought it’d be a good idea to start driving from N.Cal where he’s at only 8 hours before the concert started.
Well, it wasn’t a good idea. He got stuck in traffic, blew a tire, had to backtrack for a couple of hours because the Grapevine (a stretch of the I-5 freeway) closed down because of the, get this, SNOW/ICE. Snow and ice, in California, are you kidding me?
So Fernando, his brother, Ramiro, and I ended up cruising to Inglewood for the concert by ourselves – we figure we’d meet David there instead. Alas, by the time we got there, David was only at Santa Barbara… two hours away with NO traffic. Poor sap, there was no hope for him since he was stuck IN TRAFFIC (with a spare tire no less).
However, Ferny, Ramiro, and I plodded on, determined to get our metal on.
But we were met with challenges.
Sneaking It by the Security Guards – for YOUR Sake
First off, how in the world were we suppose to get our FlipVideo into the concert when the sign specifically said “no video camcorder device”? After all, we needed the video for your entertainment purposes (which you shall get).
Ferny proposed the idea of telling them it’s my cell phone. Uh huh… right.
We decided to hide it instead. After proposing a few inappropriate spots to hide the camera (I’ll leave that to your imagination) we decided to try hiding it in his sock. Why the sock? Because after carefully scrutinizing the pat-down process, we noticed that some of these security guards don’t pay attention to the ankles (slacker employees…)
So we went for it, and we got in, score! (Suckers, guhahahaaa!!!)
Of course, then we found out we entered the wrong checkpoint – DOH!
No worries, after waiting in another line, we got to the front, showed our tickets proudly only to have them tell us that those weren’t the “real” tickets (we printed them online) so that we had to backtrack to the ticket office to pick up our REAL tickets.
Okay, our patience was getting a little thin by now, it seems like no one knows what’s going on. But like good sports, we go to the ticket office to find out what’s going on. Well, as it turns out… the tickets we got really weren’t tickets.
“What do You Mean These are Parking Tickets?“
Well, they were, just not the type we thought they were. They were PARKING tickets.
That’s right, Mr. MIT Fernando Ceballos purchased four parking tickets online for us. This explains:
- Why parking was “free” for us
- Why these tickets were so much cheaper than what they were selling for
However, how Ferny got four parking tickets by accident, I”ll NEVER know.
After all is said and done, we refunded the (3 remaining) parking tickets, purchased the real tickets and headed inside.
Metallica Live – Ground Floor!
Once we are in, it was good times! The band was rocking, people were having a good time. Some lady was either having a seizure or was dancing really hard (I want to say the latter but I am not too sure…)
I was on the lookout for mosh pitters, priming my elbow for the deathly Cobra Strike to the first unlucky pitter to bump into me ( or was that the Monkey Attack?) But nobody did so I went back to enjoying the concert.
Flashy lights, coffins for decorations, black exercise balloon balls flying around, flames so high and hot I can feel the heat 50 feet away, loud insane music, drunk fools – oh sweet goodness.
As the night wore on and as I got more o’ so delicious beer in me, I started looking for the mosh pitters. I mean, come on, why not right? Lucky for us, we found/started one for a brief while and went a lil’ nutso knocking into each other. Gawd, the guy who created this whole mosh pit concept must been the same guy that came up with the game, Bloody Knuckles. Purely pointless, violent, and utterly stupid (but why not right?)
After the concert we headed home and awaited David’s arrival. 1:00 AM he FINALLY makes it and we head off to get some late-night tacos. Mmmm…. tacos.
And that, my friend, was my first experience with Metallica. Good times.
Raymond Fong
P.S. We lived up to our promise, we gave some good personal development stuff (I think…) in our video, so be sure to watch for it. Unless I accidentally forgot to hit the record button – not sure.
Today outta be interesting…
I am spending the day with my buds Fernando Ceballos and David Schwind. What’s the big idea? Metallica my friend, that’s the big idea. For some odd reason, when they asked me if I wanted to go when we were all down in Austin, TX visiting Mike Dillard, I said yes…

I don’t even like Metallica that much. But heck, I like new experiences so why the heck not? (Besides, Ferny bought my ticket so…
)
Of course, it was only afterwards that I learned about the mosh pit. AND it was at that same time I learned about how one of our friends got his eye socket broken while “moshing” inside a mosh pit. SWEET!

Mosh Pit Goodness...
Oh yes, and I also learned that I should gring ear plugs. AWESOME!
Who can say no right?
Well, no worries, I’ll strap on my steal-toed boots, bring my mouth guard, get a football helmet along with the shoulder pads, and I should be good to go.
Besides, Ferny and I think it’ll be fun to interview David today throughout the whole event. We are suppose to interview him on some personal development stuff. And what better venue than a Metallica concert? We’ll have the whole thing recorded so we’ll see how it goes
Stay tuned.
Raymond Fong